Civil War Journal; short response

In lines 1-64, she wanted to work in the hospital because she couldn't fight in the war. But somehow she felt the need to contribute in some type of way so one thing that she could do is help the injured soldiers. In lines 87-117 she then began realizing how the hospital is. As she says "till noon I trot, trot, giving out rations, cutting up food for helpless boys, washing faces, teaching my attendants how beds are made or floors swept, dressing wounds, taking Dr. FitzPatrick's orders, (privately wishing all the time that he would be more gentle with my big babies), dusting tables, sewing bandages, keeping my tray tidy, rushing up & down after pillows, bed linen, sponges, book & directions, till it seems as if I would joyfully pay down all I posses for a fifteen minutes rest."